I don’t buy butter. In my house you will always find Pam Spray, I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter, and some form of light, low fat, yellow spread. But never butter. Even when I’m on a binging rampage I can’t quite bring myself to eat butter.
When I go out, it is a different story. Restaurants rarely have low fat butter-like spreads. Since “real” margarine is the same calories as butter, when I eat out I eat butter. It is better when you get to put on the butter yourself, because when someone else does it invariably means 2″ of butter on the left and dry toast on the right.
This morning I was running late so I grabbed a butter roll at 7-11 for the drive. I gamely used my fingers to wipe off what must have been 4 Tbs of butter, leaving only a thin sheen on my roll. It was delicious!
Wednesdays are my loooooong day. I leave the house at 6 am and don’t get home until after 9:30 pm. I do have a chance to stop for dinner. Sometimes I have a gyro (16 points) but lately I’ve been having eggs for dinner. I eat half the hash browns and butter my own toast. The whole dinner is about 20. I had plenty of points left but I felt weird because I already ate butter today. I really thought about it before I ordered and this is what I came up with: English Muffin (dry) with a slice of mozzarella cheese. The points worked out almost the same. Maybe the muffin is a point less but this was a giant English muffin so I don’t think so. But I felt better eating the cheese: – a protein instead of a fat
– a food instead of a condiment
– something which added flavor to the meal
– something of substance
In the past I would have eaten the toast DRY. But I would have felt deprived. That’s what someone on a diet does. With the cheese it felt like a treat, not a diet. A decision I could both enjoy and be proud of. If I’m going to stick with this long term, I need to make these kinds of decisions. Not just eat the lowest point foods I can find.
So here I am, week 4 of Weight Watchers and I’m still here. Maybe I can do this. Not like before, different.